it all didnt turn out well at the end of the day


Sunday... all plans were almost considered cancelled due to:
1) bad weather
2)tiredness
3)lack of sleep


i' feel so sorry.. that i have to spoil the day okay. even though i wont say it entirely my faults but i could have been more understanding..hmm.. we had fun swimming in the morning. had fun eating at beach road - honestly the food is damm nice and cheap. =) we had fun shopping at arab street. we had fun living in our cute little own world. we had fun. but - i started off dressing really prettily for the morning and he didnt make an effort. he was so tired he could barely smile at me when i made a considerable effort to look nice for the day. then again we didnt really go to town or go anywhere and i know he sort of worried abt his project. i start feeling tired and sick. bcos i was plainly disappointed. i am tired i have tons of work at home too but at least i try to enjoy and cherish the time well spend together. so i dont know how i can laugh and cry and sad and happy all together in the same day. all my mood swings..sighh.. and i have to hurt him with my mean words and stuff. blaming him for not cherishing the "moments" hmm..


but it all turn well bcos we are sorry that we hurt each other un-intentionally. he thought i would become cold and left him bcos i wasnt really interested in anything anymore. and i thought he would find me too troublesome. so we learnt our lessons that we should plan well if not we always feel so tired. and yes we are going to the zoo soon. really. and maybe i have to cancel my trips to msia.and we have bbq plans.


Qi really shocked me to pia for my A level. and not leave my grades dangling like that. perhaps i should really do sth abt it. but all my effort are now thrown onto only one subject -lit - which i really struggling with it. every brain cells burn into trying to finish diff essays. sigh..wat abt maths? i dont know anything abt it. and chi- forget it.. all plain memorising. aRggg....


wake me up please!